Wednesday 20 November 2013

Don't Worry Be Happy?

I grew up in a religious culture where when something went wrong, or was hurtful, we were told to “offer it up”. It was an approach that I got little solace or comfort from. I understood it as a church thing connected in some way with martyrdom. By comparison to the martyrs of course, I clearly had no right to even worry about my relative lack of troubles and besides, they weren’t going to get me many heavenly brownie points next to a martyr's tally. I guess I didn't see God as much of a loving father figure. I heard it "offer it up" as stoicism and a cold order to “get over it”.

I choose to hear it differently these days. Now I hear  “hand it over”- an invitation to  let go and offer the burden to the Higher Power which has a much greater ability of holding whatever  pain, hurt or worry I am bearing. These things may often only serve to oppress me and in offering it all up, I just might get to be my best self, have my stress relieved and perhaps be more available to anyone who might need me . 

'Come to me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest…..and you will find rest for your souls.’ -Matthew 11:28-30
My mum uses another mantra last thing at night “Sacred Heart of Jesus, I place all my trust in thee”


The first time I encountered the phrase above at an Anglican Sunday service for students in the middle of exam season.The minister’s sermon focussed on what he called the Chill Psalms- 23 and 121.

23:The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths... I will fear no evil,for you are with me;your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me... etc.

121:...the Maker of heaven and earth.... will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber;... the Lord is your shade at your right hand; ... the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
The Lord will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life;the Lord will watch over your coming and going  both now and forevermore.
I know these words resonate differently for different people. But since that day in Leeds, they remind me that I am not in charge and when I hand over control I am brought to a place of rest, sustenance and comfort. Also that I can rest easy because this loving Higher Power has got my back.

“All shall be well, and all shall be well and all manner of thing shall be well.”
― Julian of Norwich

Thursday 14 November 2013

There's no such place as far away -Richard Bach

Rae! Thank you for inviting me to your birthday party! Your house is a thousand miles from mine and I travel only for the best of reasons. A party for Rae is the best and I am eager to be with you.
I began my journey in the heart of the hummingbird you and I met long ago. He was friendly as ever, yet when I told him that little Rae was growing up and that I was going to her birthday party with a present, he was puzzled.
We flew for a long while in silence and at last he said, “I understand very little of what you say, but least of all do I understand that you are going to the party.”
“Of course I am going to the party,” I said. “What is so hard to understand about that?”
He was quiet, and when we arrived at the owl’s home, he said, “Can miles truly separate us from friends? If you want to be with Rae, aren’t you already there?”
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“Little Rae is growing up and I’m going to her birthday party with a present,” I said to the owl. It felt strange to say going like that, after talking to Hummingbird, but I said it that way so Owl would understand.
He, too, flew in silence for a long time. It was a friendly silence, but as he delivered me safely to the home of the eagle, he said, “I understand very little of what you say, but least of all do I understand that you call your friend little.”
“Of course she is little,” I said, “because she is not grown up. What is so hard to understand about that?”
Owl looked at me with his deep amber eyes, smiled and said, “Think about that.”
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“Little Rae is growing up and I am going to her birthday party with a present,” I said to Eagle. It felt strange now to say going and little after talking with Hummingbird and Owl, but I said it that way so Eagle would understand. We flew together over the mountains, and soared the mountain winds.
At last she said, “I understand very little of what you say, but least of all do I understand this word birthday.”
“Of course birthday,” I said. “We are going to celebrate the hour that Rae began, and before which she was not. What is so hard to understand about that?”
Eagle curved her wings into steep dive-flaps and stepped to a smooth landing on the desert sand. “A time before Rae’s life began? Don’t you think rather that it is Rae’s life that began before time ever was?”
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“Little Rae is growing up and I am going to her birthday party with a present,” I said to Hawk. It felt strange to say going and little and birthday after talking with Hummingbird and Owl and Eagle, but I said it that way so Hawk would understand.
The desert poured by far below us and at last she said, “You know, I understand very little of what you say, but least of all do I understand growing up.”
“Of course growing up,” I said. “Rae is closer to being an adult, one more year away from being a child. What is so hard to understand about that?”
Hawk landed at last upon a lonely beach. “One more year from being a child? That does not sound like growing!” And she lifted into the air and was gone.
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Seagull, I knew, was very wise. As I flew with him I thought very carefully and chose words so that when I spoke he would know I had been learning.
“Seagull,” I said at last, “why do you fly me to see Rae when you know in truth I am already with her?”
Seagull turned down over the sea, over the hills, over the streets, and landed gently upon your rooftop.
“Because the important thing,” he said, “is for you to know the truth. Until you know it, until you truly understand it, you can show it only in smaller ways, and with outside help, from machines and people and birds. But remember,” he said, “that not being known doesn’t stop the truth from being true.” And he was gone.
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Now it’s time to open your present. Gifts of tin and glass wear out in a day and are gone. But I have a better gift for you. It is a ring for you to wear. It sparkles with a special light and cannot be taken away by anyone, it cannot be destroyed. You are the only one in all the world who can see the ring that I give you today, as I was the only one who could see it when it was mine.
Your ring gives you new power. Wearing it, you can lift yourself into the wings of all the birds that fly.
You can see through their golden eyes, you can touch the wind that sweeps through their velvet feathers, you can know the joy of going way up high above the world and all its cares. You can stay as long as you want in the sky, past the night, through sunrise, and when you feel like coming down again, your questions will have answers and your worries will have gone.
As anything that cannot be touched with the hand or seen with the eyes, your gift grows more powerful as you use it.
At first you might use it only when you are outdoors, watching the birds with whom you fly.
But later on, if you use it well, it will work with birds you cannot see, and last of all you will find that you’ll need neither ring nor bird to fly alone above the quiet of the clouds.
And when that day comes, you must give your gift to someone you know who will use it well, who can learn that the only things that matter are those made of truth and joy, and not of tin and glass.
Rae, this is the last day-a-year, special-time celebration that I shall be with you, learning what I have learned from our friends the birds.
I cannot go to be with you because I am already there.
You are not little because you are already grown, playing among your lifetimes as do we all, for the fun of living.
You have no birthday because you have always lived, you were never born, and never will you die. You are not the child of the people you call mother and father, but their fellow- adventurer on a bright journey to understand the things that are.
Every gift from a friend is a wish for your happiness, and so it is with this ring.

Wednesday 6 November 2013

The Season

Samhain- a threshold time

Sometimes, we consider the winter but a time to dig our heels in and push through the cold and the damp and the darkness. We wish it away, count the days until Christmas and then hold out for the relief of spring. We don't often cherish this blessed time. Ron Rolheiser tells us " Know that there are two kinds of darkness you can enter: the fearful darkness of paranoia, which brings sadness, and the fetal darkness of conversion, which brings life."

The Hallowe’en, all Saints and all Souls feasts celebrated last week, all have their roots in the celebration of the Celtic New Year festival of Samhain. Samhain was a time of death and the promise of re-birth, a time for stillness and reflection. It was also understood that in the dark silence come whisperings of new beginnings, the stirring of the seed beneath the ground.

Jesus tells us ‘Unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds.’ John 12:24

In leading worship this week, I gave everyone a pine cone. My internet research tells me these cones took about two years to mature. In the summer months they dried out and opened, some fell to the ground. They released seeds which were taken by the winds. By now those seeds will have come to rest in another place to bring new life. The winter conditions will prime the seeds for sprouting in the spring.

In coming to this point in our lives, to this place and with these people, we each leave behind past journeys, are winding down certain projects in which we have invested significant time and energy. We leave behind our “pine cones” and enter into new phases, embark on new adventures hoping and sometimes without any great certainty that in these new spaces we will find nourishment, a sense of rootedness or stability in ourselves, that we will grow and maybe be able to offer something to the world around.

Turnint off the lights for a few minutes and in the silence and darkness of the winter, we contemplated the aspects of our lives we have been nourishing, those things which it is time to leave behind and let go and those things which have potential to be carried forward.

It's not a pine side- I couldn't find one of them but just goes to show that the seeds we plant can turn into trees we never imagines....