Tuesday 21 October 2014

Journey of a Lifetime - Paula Finn

"You're on the journey of a lifetime...

A journey no one else will travel and no
one else can judge - a path of happiness
and hurt, where the challenges are great
and the rewards even greater...

You're on a journey where each experience
will teach you something valuable and you
can't get lost, for you already know the
way by heart.

You're on a journey that is universal
yet uniquely personal, and profound yet
astonishingly simple - where sometimes
you will stumble and other times you
will soar. You'll learn that even at your
darkest point, you can find a light - if you
look for it. at the most difficult crossroad,
you'll have an answer - if you listen for
it. Friends and family will accompany you
part of the way, and you'll walk the rest
by yourself... but you will never be alone.

Travel at your own pace. There'll be time
enough to learn all you need to know and
go as far as you're meant to go. Travel
light. Letting go of extra baggage will keep
your arms open and your heart free to
fully embrace the gifts of the moment.

You may not always know exactly where
you're headed, but if you follow the desires
of your heart, the integrity of your
conscience, and the wisdom of your soul...
then each step you take will lead you to
discover more of who you really are, and it
will be a step in the right direction on the
journey of a lifetime"

Monday 20 October 2014

A Woman's Psalm (139) - Emily Nabholz SCN

You have searched me and know me.

I am a woman...on a journey through life
I am searching for my innermost self to claim who I am as a woman
I am going beyond reflection
I am a woman on an inner search

This inner search leads me to stop running away from you
      - to trust your ever abiding presence
      - to trust your inner workings in me as a woman

I am a woman full of light and shadows
        full of love and fear
        full of hope and despair
But you are there to lead me - to help me
You are the light of my life
I could ask the darkness to hide me
You call me out of darkness
Darkness and light are all the same to you
You accept me just as I am
A woman of light and shadows; love, fear; hope and despair

As I look around and remember your goodness to me my heart is glad
As a woman, I ever seek you in all your ways

You created every part of me
You put me together in my mother’s womb, 
In the womb of life, I am nurtured and nourished, protected and loved
I praise you for the gift of life - for the gift of being woman

I am a woman of remembering, I am a woman of reflection
I realize the days you give me are all recorded in your book
Your thoughts are so above my thoughts, your knowledge of me is too deep 
It is beyond my understanding

Examine me, O Lord, and know me through and through
Let me be naked and open before you, for you are my God
I am a woman in awe and praise of you
Teach me to pray
Pray within me, my Lord and my God

Wednesday 2 July 2014

Merton's Prayer

MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. Therefore I will trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.
— Thomas Merton from Thoughts In Solitude

Tuesday 27 May 2014

The least of me

"What if the “least of these” that Jesus talks about turns out to be part of our own selves? The parts of ourselves that are sick and homeless and hungry and thirsty and naked.

We are called to love ourselves in our entirety: to honour every part of ourselves — not just our strengths but our manifold weaknesses. Even our anger and despair and doubt.

We are called to accept all in ourselves that we have abandoned and hidden or denied or undervalued, to drop the pretence and posturing we adopt to make ourselves acceptable, to reconcile our inner conflict and division against ourselves, judging ourselves harshly and badly, neglecting ourselves — to love ourselves as we are loved by God.

We are called to face our true centre, to resolve to live out of the selves that have been loved since the foundation of the world.

We are called, too, to love one other as we love ourselves. Indeed, how we love ourselves will determine how well we can love the other: we are all made in the image of God.

So who do we find most difficult to love? Aren’t they people who remind us of the parts of ourselves we fear or dislike?  We are called to love each other in our entirety. Even the parts, especially the
parts, we would prefer to ignore, deny or overlook. We are called to value each other equally. And we are called to love even those we make the outsider, who represent the things that we have banished."
-Sheena McMain

Wednesday 21 May 2014

Edwina Gately's Balance

So much struggling –
realizing that I need a balance
between reaching out and reaching in.
I need to do some things just for me,
like paint and play
and read and build sandcastles.
I need to stop for a long time
to think about that.
Where did I miss it? Lose it?
For joy is the centre of ministry.
Joy should precede ministry,
nurture it and fulfil it.

But I am so intense about ministry,
and take it so solemnly
(as if I were responsible for it)
that I become weighed down,
by its ups and downs,
its disappointments and its failures.
I suffocate joy with
seriousness …
I imagine everything depends on me –
when everything is God’s business,
and God has already taken care of
all her creation
and all her people.
We are only to talk with each other
be with each other,
love each other,
God’s is the healing, the growing, and the fulfilling.

When I lose perspective
and imagine everything,
(or most things)
revolving around myself,
I make myself
a little god,
and lose my joy.
For I was never made
to be a little god – only
to be loved
by the Great God.
Perhaps I am too busy
trying to love other people
instead of learning to love myself.

When I can do that
I might begin to understand
how great God’s love is.
When I go through
darkness, heaviness and anxiety,
it is God’s invitation
for me to stop
looking outwards
and start
looking inwards.
And be loving and gentle
with myself.
I am called to minister
for my own joy.
When my joy diminishes,
so does my ministry.
When I have fun and
enjoy myself
God does.
Then I am most like God –
Who is joy!

Monday 28 April 2014

Awaken Me -Joyce Rupp

Risen One,
come, meet me
in the garden of my life.

Lure me into elation.
Revive my silent hope.
Coax my dormant dreams.
Raise up my neglected gratitude.
Entice my tired enthusiasm.
Give life to my faltering relationships.
Roll back the stone of my indifference.
Unwrap the deadness in my spiritual life.
Impart heartiness in my work.

Risen One,
send me forth as a disciple of your unwavering love,
a messenger
of your unlimited joy.

Resurrected One,
may I become
ever more convinced
that your presence lives on,
and on, and on,
and on.


Awaken me!
Awaken me!

(from Out of the Ordinary)

Friday 18 April 2014

Transformative Suffering

Richard Rohr excerpt reblogged from http://insilencewaits.wordpress.com/


Don’t get rid of the pain until you’ve learned its lessons. When you hold the pain consciously and trust fully, you are in a very special liminal space. This is a great teaching moment where you have the possibility of breaking through to a deeper level of faith and consciousness. Hold the pain of being human until God transforms you through it. And then you will be an instrument of transformation for others.

As an example of holding the pain, picture Mary standing at the foot of the cross. Standing would not be the normal posture of a Jewish woman who is supposed to wail and lament and show pain externally. She’s holding the pain instead, as also symbolized in Michelangelo’s Pietà. Mary is in complete solidarity with the mystery of life and death. She’s trying to say, “There’s something deeper happening here. How can I absorb it just as Jesus is absorbing it, instead of returning it in kind?” Until you find a way to be a transformer, you will pass the pain onto others.
Jesus on the cross and Mary standing by the cross are images of transformative religion. They are never transmitting the pain to others. All the hostility that had been directed toward them—the hatred, the accusations, the malice—none of it is returned. They hold the suffering until it becomes resurrection! That’s the core mystery. It takes our whole life to comprehend this, and then to become God’s “new creation” (Galatians 6:15). The imperial ego hates such seeming diminishment.
Unfortunately, we have the natural instinct to fix pain, to control it, or even, foolishly, to try to understand it. The ego always insists on understanding. That’s why Jesus praises a certain quality even more than love, and he calls it faith. It is the ability to stand in liminal space, to stand on the threshold, to hold the contraries, until you move to a deeper level where it all eventually makes sense in the great scheme of God and grace.
— Richard Rohr adapted from The Authority of Those Who Have Suffered

Wednesday 9 April 2014

Making Safe the Shadowlands

I got the loveliest piece of affirmation lately- and in work of all places! A wonderful woman with whom I had an authentic conversation suggested jokingly that I should carry a "Warning You Are Entering a Safe Zone" sign. It left me thinking that when I am at my best, I create a safe space for others to be fully themselves, in hurt or in joy, in play or in anger. In authenticity. When it happens, I am humbled and privileged to share the space with them. My inner light is in this space, where others' inner lights are laid bare and nurtured.

Wayne Hutchinson laid bare his inner light, strength, insight and solidarity this week. What struck me is his reference to depression as a "companion". I know there is something in trying to accept some of our struggles so that we don't lose so much energy in denying them. However, I still see mental health challenges as more of a cross than a companion. The true companions (or angels) that I saw in his story were his niece, his mum and his GP:
As I walk downstairs, drying the tears on my cheeks, I encounter the most beautiful of smiles, worn by my beautiful two-year-old niece, whose face bears the look of someone without a care in the world, the way all kids should be.
I ask her for a hug and she lovingly obliges. This small hug from a little girl will get me through this day. That hug felt like the best one I’ve ever received. It’s just what I needed.
...
I called my Mother for help – she’d been in and out my room to me for days, trying to help, but I was too scared to even speak to her. Really f**king scared. 
Eventually I found my voice in her company. She listened to what I had to say and we both cried together. It was tough, so tough, but she promised she’d do all she could to help me. Mothers are great that way.
...
You talk, he [the GP] listens. You feel a level of relief in the face of  all that pain you’ve been through: the sleepless nights, the tears, the empty soul, the darkness that surrounds your world. 
Lately, I have been thinking a lot about a moment some years ago when I experienced the nurturing security of companionship at a time when I felt like I was falling apart. I was experiencing debilitating depression, had lost my confidence and sense of self and felt unable to face the world and unworthy to inflict myself upon it. I was not getting out of bed let alone leaving the house. A friend of mine called over and didn't tell me to look on the bright side or list all the things I had going for me or drag me out into a world I wasn't able to deal with. Instead, he got into the bed beside me, put an arm around me and joined me in my darkness. I was not alone.

Thank God, it is a while since I've been so low that that level of lethargy, fear of the world and letting down everyone in it (including myself) have been so unrelenting as to block out the light. Admittedly, I still have real panicked moments where I cry to God that I cannot bear to live my life with this as a persistent feature. In my more even moments, I see the blessing in how this enables me to sense others hurting, be compassionate and journey with them in solidarity, understanding my brother or sister's fear and darkness as my own. (We are one in Christ/humanity/whoever your God). It allows me to do, in my own way, as my cherished friend taught me- to get in under the covers and hold others in my heart, join them in their hurt and hold on until, God willing, the grip loosens just enough to fathom that no shadow can exist without light.



Somewhere in all of this I grew in faith. I came to know a Jesus who joins us in our suffering while promising ultimate triumph over the worst of it.
In the inner chambers of your heart, God steps past all your talent and hard work — all that you would think he values. He goes straight for the messy, broken places in you because it’s there that you can truly discover him. This is the way he frees your heart to love, to risk, to grab hold of life for the joy that’s there. — Paula Rienhart from Strong Women, Soft Hearts
I'll finish with a prayer from Michael Leunig's A Cartoonist Talks to God:
Abba Father,
We pray for the fragile ecology of the heart and the mind. The sense of meaning. So finely assembled and balanced and so easily overturned. The careful, ongoing construction of love. As painful and exhausting as the struggle for truth and as easily abandoned.
Hard-fought and won are the shifting sands of this sacred ground, this ecology. Easy to desecrate and difficult to defend, this vulnerable joy, this exposed faith, this precious order. This sanity.
We shall be careful. With others and with ourselves.
Amen

Friday 7 March 2014

All Hands on Deck

Joseph Tetlow SJ that suggests “God’s Project” is more useful than terms like “God’s Will” or “God’s Plan”. He prefers “God’s Project” because it is more indicative of a work in progress and one in which we are all active collaborators. (See Chapter 10 of his book Making Choices in Christ- you’ll get the guts of it online through Google Books although Ignatianspirituality.com has an abridged rendering). This is in tune with what Joan Chittester refers to as “a new view of Creation... emerging in the Scriptures of Science”.

She says, “Creation in this model is.. a series of... acts of a Great God who says my gift to you is life- use it well.... This is a Great God, a humble God, allowing life to work itself out. ...In this model of theology, Creation is a work in progress. Each of us has a bit of it and each of us is meant to complete our own and all of life around us- that is our responsibility... This is a God who shares responsibility with the human race..... Here, free will really gets important- everything that you and I do changes the world everywhere and for everyone. We know that God doesn’t create evil- we do... And we can uncreate [it] any time we want to. Why? Because in this model we have a responsibility to the ongoing creation of life and we share that with our humble God who is accompanying us right now, here with you and me. Not monitoring us, not abandoning us, not setting out to catch us but to say to us I’m with you..... This God is a summoning God saying, ‘Don’t stop now! Come on, don’t stop growing now. Don’t close your mind now. Don’t stop your soul now. I have so much more that you can find if you’ll just look.”
I was asked lately how I can possibly have faith when there is so much going wrong and so much wrong doing in the world. My response was that I don’t believe this to be the work of a God of Love. In loving us human beings and allowing us free will, a consequence is that we have created systems and made choices apart from love and solidarity and the will of God Leonard SJ has it fleshed out much more in his book ‘Where the Hell is God?

I believe that Christian social teaching, the Word incarnate, the God of love and a recognition of the divine Spirit in each and every person is the most compelling and perhaps the only response. Pope Francis has said that it is not enough to say one loves Jesus; it must be shown in love for those he loved. In speaking of Christian Love, he has reminded us that “Jesus Himself, when He speaks of love, speaks to us about concrete things: feeding the hungry, visiting the sick, and many concrete things.”

I feel compelled to respond to suffering before us, to love where it appears to be lacking, to pray and hope in the face of disaster. It is what we are asked to do in the lines of scripture below:

“And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love tenderly, and to walk humbly with your God” Micah 6:8

 “And now I give you a new commandment: love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. 35 If you have love for one another, then everyone will know that you are my disciples.” John 13 34-35

Ignacio Ellacuría SJ who was martyred in El Salvador said “We are people of the Gospel, a gospel that proclaims the reign of God, and that calls us to try to transform this earth into as close a likeness of that reign as possible.”  I rather prefer this "faith that does justice" ahead of the alternative of despair.

Christ has no body but yours,
No hands, no feet on earth but yours,
Yours are the eyes with which he looks
Compassion on this world,
Yours are the feet with which he walks to do good,
Yours are the hands, with which he blesses all the world.
Yours are the hands, yours are the feet,
Yours are the eyes, you are his body.
Christ has no body now but yours,
No hands, no feet on earth but yours,
Yours are the eyes with which he looks
compassion on this world.
Christ has no body now on earth but yours.
- Teresa of Avila (1515–1582)
“Let us not tire of preaching love; it is the force that will overcome the world. Let us not tire of preaching love. Though we see that waves of violence succeed in drowning the fire of Christian love, love must win out; it is the only thing that can.” 

- Oscar Romero, included on p.20 of The Violence of Love

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Friday 7 February 2014

Truth and Mercy have met together; Peace and Justice have kissed - Psalm 85:10

Lederach's parable "The Meeting Place"- worth a reac...

"Greatly distressed in the midst of a nasty conflict, I kept hearing the names of Truth, Mercy, Justice and Peace invoked time and again. When the arguments and blows had gone round and round I made a proposal. "What if," I asked the people in this awful fight, "What if we invited our four friends to join us and asked them to openly discuss their views about conflict?"
Locked in their righteous stances as they were, the people looked at me a bit stunned with such a ludicrous idea, but I proceeded without paying much attention. "I have seen them come and go in other fights. I could ask them to try to clear up a few things."
Nobody objected, so I brought Truth, Mercy, Justice and Peace into room and sat them down in front of the contentious crowd. I addressed the four. "We want to know what concerns you each have in the midst of conflict. Would it be possible to hear your views?"
Truth stood and spoke first. "I am Truth," she said. "I am like light cast so that all may see. At times of conflict I am concerned with bringing forward, out into the open, what really happened. Not with the watered down version. Not with a partial recounting. My handmaidens are transparency, honesty, and clarity. I am set apart from my three colleagues here," Truth gestured toward Mercy, Justice and Peace, "because they need me first and foremost. Without me they cannot go forward. When I am found, I set people free."
"Sister Truth," I interjected hesitantly, not wanting to question her integrity, "You know I have been around a lot of conflict in my life and there is one thing that I am always curious about. When I talk to one side, like these people over here, they say that you are with them. When I talk to the others, like our friends over there, they claim you are on their side. Yet in the middle of all this pain, you seem to come and go. Is there only one Truth?"
"There is only one Truth, but I can be experienced in many different ways. I reside within each person yet nobody owns me."
"If discovering you is so crucial," I asked Sister Truth, "why are you so hard to find?"
She thought for a while, then said. "I can only appear where the search is genuine and authentic. I come forward only when each person shares with others what they know of me and each respects the others voice. Where I am strutted before others, like a hand puppet on a child's stage, I am abused, shattered and disappear."
"Of these three friends," I pointed to the three colleagues seated around her, "Whom do you fear the most?"
Without hesitation she pointed to Mercy. "I fear him," she said quietly. "In his haste to heal he covers my light and clouds my clarity. He forgets," she concluded, "that forgiveness is our child, not his."
I then turned to Mercy. "I am sure you have things to say. What concerns you?"
Mercy rose slowly and spoke, "I am Mercy." He seemed to begin with a plea, as though he knew that he, among them all, was under tight scrutiny. "And I am the new beginning. I am concerned with people and their relationships. Acceptance, compassion and support stand with me. I know the frailty of the human condition. Who among them is perfect?" he turned to Truth and continued with his eyes on her. "She knows that her light can bring clarity but too often it blinds and burns. What freedom is there without life and relationship? Forgiveness is indeed our child, but not when people are arrogantly clubbed to humiliation and agony with their imperfections and weaknesses. Our child was birthed to provide for the healing."
"But Brother Mercy," I could not resist the immediacy of the question. "In your rush to accept, support, and move ahead do you not abort the child?"
"I do not cover Truth's light," he reacted quickly. "You must understand. I am Mercy. I am built of steadfast love that undergirds life itself. It is my purpose in life to bring forward the eternal grace of new beginnings."
"And whom do you fear most?" I asked.
Mercy turned and faced Justice. "My brother Justice," he said in a clear voice. "In his haste to change and make things right, he forgets that his roots lie in real people and relationships."
"So Brother Justice," I said, "what do you have to say?"
"I am Justice," he said as he rose to his feet. His strong voice accompanied by a deep smile. "And Mercy is correct, I am concerned about making things right. I consider myself a person who looks beyond the surface and the issues about which people seem to fight. What lies at the root of most conflicts are inequality , greed, and wrongdoing. I stand with Truth who sheds her light on the paths of wrongdoing. My task is to make sure that something is done to restore the damage that has been wreaked, particularly on the victims and the downtrodden. We must restore the relationship, but never at the expense of acknowledging and rectifying what broke the relationship in the first place."
"But Brother Justice," I just had to find out, "everybody in this room feels they have been wronged. And most are willing to justify their actions, even violent action, on the basis of doing your bidding. Is this not true?"
"It is indeed," he responded. "And most do not understand." He paused as he thought for a minute. "You see, I am most concerned about accountability. Too often we think that any and everything is acceptable. True and committed relationships are those characterized by honest accounting and steadfast love. Love without accountability is nothing but words. Love with accountability is changed behavior and action. This is the real meaning restoration. My purpose is to bring action and accountability to the words."
"Then whom do you fear?" I inquired.
"My children," he chuckled with the irony of experienced years. "I fear that my children, Mercy and Peace, see themselves as parents," his voice carried a hint of gentle provocation, "when, in fact, they are the fruit of my labor."
Peace burst into an irrepressible smile. Before I could speak she stepped forward. "I am Peace, and I agree with all three," she began. "I am the child to whom they give birth, the mother who labors to give them life, and the spouse who accompanies them on the way. I hold the community together, with the encouragement of security, respect and well- being."
Truth and Justice began to protest. "That is precisely the problem," Truth said in a frustrated voice. "You see yourself as greater and bigger than the rest."
"It is this arrogance," Justice's finger pointed toward Peace. "You do not place yourself where you belong. You follow us. You do not precede us."
"This is true my dear Brother and Sister," Peace responded. "I am more fully expressed through and after you both. But it is also true that without me there is no space for Truth to be heard," she said as she turned toward Justice. "And without me there is no respite from the viscious cycle of accusation, bitterness, and bloodshed. You, yourself Justice cannot be fully embodied without my presence. I am before and after. There is no way to reach me except that I am the way."
Silence fell for a moment. "And whom do you fear?" I ask.
"Not who, but what and when," Peace said. "I fear manipulation. I fear the manipulation of people who use Sister Truth for their purposes. Some ignore her, some use her as a whip, some claim to own her. I fear the times when for the sake of Brother Mercy, Brother Justice is sacrificed. I fear the blind manipulation that for the ideal of Brother Justice some will sacrifice life itself. When manipulation such as these take place, I am violated and rendered a meaningless empty shell."
I turned my attention and addressed all four. "How would it ever be possible for you to meet together? What would you need from each other?"
Truth looked first at Mercy. "You must slow down. Give me space to emerge. Our child cannot be born without the slow development in the womb of the Mother."
He nodded, then added. "Shine bright dear sister, but please take care not to blind and burn. Remember that each person is a child of God, that each is weak and needs support to grow."
Justice came in straight-away. "I have been partially reassured by the words of sister Peace. I need a clear statement that she gives a place for accountability and action. Remember when Micah spoke of us. Love Mercy and do Justice he wrote. You must give place for me to come forward or truly you will not be fully born."
Peace responded on the heels of his last words. "Brother Justice, our lips will meet if we recognize that we need one another. Let not your heart of compassion fall into a bitterness that rages without purpose, and I will provide the soil for you to work and bear fruit."
The four were now huddled in a small circle. "And what," I asked, "is this place called where you now stand together?"
"This place," they responded in a single voice, "is reconciliation."
Then, suddenly without signal, they touched hands and danced. It was as if the dance came only rarely, like the weaving of lines and bodies around a May pole. You could hardly distinguish one from the other as they swung from the room. No one said a word. No music was in the air, only the images of the interwoven bodies of Truth, Mercy, Justice and Peace."

Source: http://www.colorado.edu/conflict/transform/jplchpt.htm

Monday 27 January 2014

We are the fished

a minor friar blog: Fishy Ramble: Today it was my turn to be principal celebrant at Mass. I've come to hold such days precious in my current circumstances. When I was in ...

Thursday 16 January 2014

If It Is Not Too Dark- Hafiz (Redux)

Go for a walk, if it is not too dark.
Get some fresh air, try to smile.
Say something kind
To a safe-looking stranger, if one happens by.

Always exercise your heart's knowing.

You might as well attempt something real
Along this path:

Take your spouse or lover into your arms
The way you did when you first met.
Let tenderness pour from your eyes
The way the Sun gazes warmly on the earth.

Play a game with some children.
Extend yourself to a friend.
Sing a few ribald songs to your pets and plants -
Why not let them get drunk and wild!

Let's toast
Every rung we've climbed on Evolution's ladder.
Whisper, "I love you! I love you!"
To the whole mad world.

Let's stop reading about God -
We will never understand Him.

Jump to your feet, wave your fists,
Threaten and warn the whole Universe

That your heart can no longer live
Without real love!

~ Hafiz ~
 
(I Heard God Laughing - Renderings of Hafiz by Daniel Ladinsky)
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